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Friday, 07 October 2005
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there's nothing like spending your mum's death anniversary dissecting why yr a failure at relationships with your ex.
nico. all the things i forgot to say. says:
cos sometimes i think i am incapable of having a long term relationship
The Grocery Martyr says:
i doubt that. you just need something to inspire you i think
nico. all the things i forgot to say. says:
what do you mean/
nico. all the things i forgot to say. says:
?
The Grocery Martyr says:
haha
The Grocery Martyr says:
the l word?
nico. all the things i forgot to say. says:
im a lesbian?
The Grocery Martyr says:
have you ever been in a relationship and wanted it to be long term?
The Grocery Martyr says:
love dear, not lesbian
nico. all the things i forgot to say. says:
haha
(cathartic, really.)
Currently Listening
Broken Social Scene
By Broken Social Scene
It's All Gonna Break
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Tuesday, 26 April 2005
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Who doesn't want to probe the Arcade Fire?
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One of my fondest memories was sittin' on my daddy's knee.
I dislike packing. In fact, I downright hate it. What I do love, however, is getting to sort through all the stuff accumulated over a period of time. The random notes, letters you never sent to people, stickers, magazines, etc. I could go on since I managed to accumulate a lot of crap in the past year.
There's a lot of stuff in here I'd probably rather not remember, and way more that I do like remembering regardless of how it might make me feel. But when it comes down to it, do these count? Sure, having something tangible to take you back to that night or that weekend or that relationship is a great thing to have. But should we assume that the memory will only prevail if you can hold an aspect of it in your hand?
Well, I'm done with assuming so. There are certain people, and certain periods in my life that I continuously remember in a variety of contexts, yet I don't have keepsakes for them. I've already proven to myself that I can remember, whether I want to or not, without actually seeing the memory.
Bring in the garbage bags. This girl is throwing it all out. Heartless, maybe. Cleansing, definitely.
And doesn't the purging just force you to create new memories and piles of crap, anyway?
Currently Playing
Van Lear Rose
By Loretta Lynn
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Sunday, 03 April 2005
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The morning after the morning after
Yesterday there was snow, but I was feeling alright. We always(only) worked during winter, I guess. With a lack of sun and green we fed off each other. I fed your ego and I stuffed myself with half-truths/lies.It made me realize how nothing has changed in eleven months. It's a different house, but it looks and feels the same. You look and feel the same, too.
The cold wind, the freezing rain and your final words hit at the same time. Your nonchalant ways, which is what draws me to you in the first place, leave me just as confused as I was way back when. At the same time, I left feeling curious. (You always said I was so curious, anyway)
I thought it would be weird to see you again. I didn't know if it would be awkward, or if we would find some way to avoid each other. But we didn't. We picked up right where we left off. Like nothing had happened. It was all so easy. Too easy.
Today is different. After a stern talking to last night that only came from a good place, I am seeing things differently now. It was the same, and that's why I am curious, and that's why it was so easy to fall back in. But, it's the same and if I continue down this road again nothing will be different. And you might be the same, but I think I have changed. Calling you would only be a(several) step(s) back.
So, why do I know I am still going to call you, anyway?
Currently Playing
Alfie
By Mick Jagger, Dave Stewart
Old Habits Die Hard
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Tuesday, 22 February 2005
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Did you know...
that Prince William enjoys red wine, and the occasional 'lahguh" (as the brits call it) and Prince Harry likes the vodka/Red Bull?
This documentary does. Aptly titled Prince William and Prince Harry, it tackles the question "will they ever be left alone?" Um, including this vital information into the lives of the princes sorta answers the question, doesn't it?
Currently Playing
Rubber Soul [UK]
By The Beatles
Drive My Car
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- Name: nico
- Country: Canada
- State: Ontario
- Birthday: 7/29/1982
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 11/13/2002
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